kenkoy runner's thoughts and then some.....

after going through a couple races, a lot of people been noticing that i've been improving daw. they say i'm fast na daw. for me naman, parang wala namang change ah :) a lot of people have been asking, anong secret ko. for me, wala namang secret weapon eh. actually, hindi kasi sha "secret" kasi i always tell people about it. what fuels me during races? other than ung usual na well hydrated, well practiced, and knowing yourself, my main not-so-secret-weapon is this : THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS. the other things i've mentioned above, for sure maraming blogs about those, na kung saan saang nagsasabi na mag train ng mabuti, proper hydration etc, pero parang i don't see often kung anong mental strategies ang ginagawa nila. (madamot ba sila at ayaw mag share? haha) yung approach ko naman is just about using common sense eh, what made me remember to think about happy thoughts is the movie legally blonde (yup ung kay reese whitherspoon) na sinabi nya something about shoppin...

the past few weeks prior to baguio have been a whirlwind of events which revolves around running, work, family and the balance i need to give to ALL these. so far, it seems like the most i've been giving priority/ attention to is my running. improvement in my running time has been greatly noticed by my runner friends , (even to the point calling me "hoff"). for me okay to, but then again, i realize that there are other facets of my life, facets that i tend to overlook at times, primarily because i've been focusing on my running. at one time, on the way to makati, i was talking to a friend about this topic. I told her na parang i'm not being able to maximize my potentials anymore. knowing myself, i know that if i focus on it, i can do it. i can achieve my goals. no matter what other people might say to me, it will not deter me from doing what i set my mind into doing. this made me think of what i wanna do in life. do i want to be in an office? do i wanna g...

posted from a friend's post. fun truths by Bob Ong. (malamang alam nyo na ito, gusto ko lang ilagay ulit dito). 21 Utos ni Bob-Ong 1. “Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, ‘wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka niya.” 2. “Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba..” 3. “Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.” 4. “Huwag na huwag kang hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.” 5. “Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sa ‘yo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.” 6. “Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo… Dapat lumandi ka rin.” 7. “Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sa ‘yo, hayaan mo. malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na rin sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.” 8. “Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.” 9. “Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo, wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na hindi mo mahal pero mahal ka… Kaya quits ...

the past few days have been a whirlwind of emotions. extremely happy extremely sad confused lost controlled at a loss focused dedicated motivated inspired exceeds expectations forward-looking aiming to go beyond what can be seen thinking of what should and could have been entertained thoughts of shutting down of moving on, growing up, getting stronger. strength derived from a group, strength in numbers, sometimes strength derived from within. there were moments when everything would look alright, but deep inside there is something that can make me feel fright. sometimes i draw strength just by thinking of you. sometimes its you that make me feel blue. underneath the smile and happiness, they sometimes cannot see that there is another side of me.

this entry was originally posted in my multiply account last April 5, 2009. just wanted to share. (para matrigger ako sa next entry ko). "this entry was written yesterday, pero nag loko ung connection ko kagabi kaya hindi ko sha na post. pag pasenyahan nyo na lang ako at tinatamad na din akong mag edit. hehehehe. "today started on a weird note. well actually it started last night when my internet connection was going boinkers on me. initially it was connected but then after a few minutes, i was not able to connect at all, even if all the 3 lights of the modem were lighted. i guess i took that as a clue for me to sleep earlier than usual (because i was not going to run early the next day, and that, it was too early to sleep kasi nga wala namang gimmick the morning after.) buti na lang stress at work were so dami, and i was able to sleep soundly. (sobrang soundly na i wasn't able to turn off the modem, the lights and the radio! patay!). so there. tapos for some weird reason...

original blog was made after the my first 21K at botak paa-tibayan. http://timmysebastian.multiply.com/journal/item/85/leap_of_faith while most of the people were ranting about the hassles of the race, i went deeper and reflected not on how hassle it was for all, but more on the thoughts behind the event itself, and how i made this "leap of faith" happy reading! this morning, i finished my first ever half-marathon at the botak paa-tibayan held at the fort. for a newbie, i never thought of having my half mary as early as may, as i just started "serious" running at the start if the year. it was not yet in my plans to run a half mary this early, but maybe the addict in me was so persistent that i eventually gave in. at first i was having second, third thoughts on whether or not i can do it. I don't want to do something where im not sure if i can finish it ba, or if i could pull something off which i haven't even tried imagining doing before. in short, this tran...

original blog was posted from my multiply blog, initially set for my contacts only. http://timmysebastian.multiply.com/journal/item/84/fear_factor whenever we get intimate with others, or kahit hindi naman intimate, we often get to a point when we ask others what their worst fear is/are. when asked this question, i usually don't have a ready answer,primarily because i am not sure what i am scared/ afraid of (kung meron man). while taking a bath this evening, a thought dawned on me that i think i'm afraid of being "successful". (don't look at me like im someone who's bragging, i'm not. let me explain myself before you cast your stones at me.) why did this conclusion come to mind? while taking a bath after my evening run (see, running clears cobwebs of one's mind, and makes you realize things hahaha), i realized that whenever i am becoming successful, something negative happens. actual examples are the following: when i was in grade school, i was a consi...