the past few days have been a whirlwind of emotions.
at a loss
aiming to go beyond what can be seen
thinking of what should and could have been
entertained thoughts of shutting down
of moving on, growing up, getting stronger.
strength derived from a group,
strength in numbers, sometimes
strength derived from within.
there were moments when everything would look alright,
but deep inside there is something that can make me feel fright.
sometimes i draw strength just by thinking of you. sometimes its you that make me feel blue.
underneath the smile and happiness,
they sometimes cannot see
that there is another side of me.